This morning the emotional part has set in. I can cry at the drop of a hat. It's too bad that I couldn't have had surgery right away...it would have been better. I can read people's faces...especially little kids. I can see fear in them. I think even Laddie is looking at me differently. I have talked about my hair today. I will have my head shaved, to make it safer ...because of chance of infection and really not feeling like fixing it. We have a family wedding in Sept. We will have to see if we can go. I have a beautiful dress for the occasion....beautiful dress and a bald head...Oh, I never thought I'd have to deal with this. We are keeping busy by making food for the freezer. We will have meals when I come home already prepared. You might think...don't bother with that right now....but it is giving us something to do. Joe is my right hand man. He is there for me always. I don't even have to ask...he knows what to do to make it better. It can be hard for him....he is old, like me, and gets tired very easily. I hope the kids take care of him during this ordeal. He is a gentle giant....always there for everyone else. I have to get it across to my kids how wonderful he is to me. You know...your kids are there for you as much as they can be...but a spouse is there through it all. He just came in the room and told me that Ted Kennedy passed away. I have always liked him and thought that he was one of our great senators. I thought he was failing at the time of his sister's death. He will be missed. Well, the day will go on and hopefully I will get out of this mood. The weather doesn't help...it's a rainy, dreary, day. At least I don't have to water anything. I have to call and cancel my hair appointment as soon as the shop opens. This hair thing is not that big a deal for me...really.