A Sentiment

God knew what He was doing when He sent a gentle breeze and brought a lovely butterfly to set my heart at ease. The happiness of your friendship and the gentleness of your words have touched my life in special ways and now I feel assured. Thank you for your loyalty and for reading everyday. I only hope you find things to make a happy day.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Journal before Surgery

This morning the emotional part has set in. I can cry at the drop of a hat. It's too bad that I couldn't have had surgery right away...it would have been better. I can read people's faces...especially little kids. I can see fear in them. I think even Laddie is looking at me differently. I have talked about my hair today. I will have my head shaved, to make it safer ...because of chance of infection and really not feeling like fixing it. We have a family wedding in Sept. We will have to see if we can go. I have a beautiful dress for the occasion....beautiful dress and a bald head...Oh, I never thought I'd have to deal with this. We are keeping busy by making food for the freezer. We will have meals when I come home already prepared. You might think...don't bother with that right now....but it is giving us something to do. Joe is my right hand man. He is there for me always. I don't even have to ask...he knows what to do to make it better. It can be hard for him....he is old, like me, and gets tired very easily. I hope the kids take care of him during this ordeal. He is a gentle giant....always there for everyone else. I have to get it across to my kids how wonderful he is to me. You know...your kids are there for you as much as they can be...but a spouse is there through it all. He just came in the room and told me that Ted Kennedy passed away. I have always liked him and thought that he was one of our great senators. I thought he was failing at the time of his sister's death. He will be missed. Well, the day will go on and hopefully I will get out of this mood. The weather doesn't help...it's a rainy, dreary, day. At least I don't have to water anything. I have to call and cancel my hair appointment as soon as the shop opens. This hair thing is not that big a deal for me...really.



Hocking Hills Gardener said...

Balisha, I Wish I could reach out and give you a reassuring hug that everything will be alright. The waiting is so hard I can imagine when ones mind tends to dwell on the surgery ahead.But time does pass by. When I face an unpleasant event I just keep thinking in my mind over and over "That this will be over and just another memory to look back on" as if it were a year later.
This to shall pass.

Barb said...

Balisha, My thoughts and prayers are with you every day. I pray that your surgery will go good and you will have a fast recovery. Your flowers and garden will be waiting for you when your health is good again. Right now your health is the most important thing. Take care.


Judy said...

Hi Balisha, I am so sorry I have not been by sooner. I was shocked to hear about your seizure. I think your doing a journal about this is such a good thing. It will enlighten the rest of us. I wish I was there to help you and could watch your garden or help make dinners, etc. Please take care of yourself and I will pray for you and your family. You will be on my mind until this is over and you are home and can put it behind you. Much love and hugs. Judy

Margie's Musings said...

Balisha, I feel for you and wouild love to join the others in giving you a huge hug. I have you in my prayers and know that every time I see your blog, I pray for you. I hope our prayers can help you feel stronger and able to face all this.

Margie's Musings said...

By the way, Balisha...there are some nice wigs out there.

cwa said...

I'll bet if we asked Joe, he would say that you would look just as gorgeous without hair as with.

Besides, who needs hair anyway. It's really just a nuisance. Mine is terribly thick and has a mind of its' own. It never does what I want it to, and it takes up way too much of my time. Believe me, I would gladly give you some of mine if I could.

But you don't really need it, because your true beauty comes from within. Why even your blog shows how beautiful you are on the inside. Your wonderful personality and zest for life shine through in everything you write. I love reading your posts and am always tickled when you leave a comment on my blog. I hope Joe doesn't mind me pestering him for information, because if he forgets to keep us informed, I'm sure to leave lots of questions on your blog. We all want you back to your healthy, chipper self as soon as possible.

Blessings to you and your family.

Suzie said...

I have a story about hair! When my sister had cancer and lost her hair my aunt belonged to a group that would knit hats for women. My sister was sent an all brown hat and could fit King Kong! We laughed so hard so we passed that hat around trying it on. We all looked like we had grown brown fuzzy hair.
I wish you lots of comfort, laughter till it hurts, and lots of good people surrounding you.

Elenka said...

I'm sorry, I haven't checked in with you in a couple of days.....am thinking about you.
I'm so glad your husband will keep us posted.