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Monday, August 31, 2009

Another Day's Thoughts Before Surgery

Oh, my...how I wish the thinker was a female. Here's what she'd be thining today.
Teary eyed again this morning...boy what a sissy I am. I'm really not afraid of the surgery, but the stay after in the hospital is something that I will not like. I guess I want control of my life and you really feel helpless there. I'm going to be a crotchety old lady, when I grow up... :) I guess that I will have to just grin and bear it. I haven't much choice. I know that control issues are a little bit of a problem for me. Maybe this is the way that the good Lord is telling me to "Let go and let God" You know, we women have fought for the rights that we have today. I always wanted my daughter to be strong and able to take on the world. She turned out to be a very strong woman. I've been married forever, but I have always had my own opinions and have voiced them frequently. Just ask Joe.
This is a little like confession this morning. When you've been living a life, where you feel that you are in control, when do we just relax and let go? I guess this is the time for me. I'm going to do my best to cooperate ..take things as they come...and be a good old girl. (Inside, I will be fighting to get back to my old self...feisty, maybe a tad bossy, and then there's that control side of me)
Balisha
Just admitting it is good....isn't it? :)

9 comments:

nancybond said...

Confession is good for the soul, isn't that what they say? :-) I will surely be thinking of your tomorrow - you'll be in my prayers. I'm sure things will be fine, and before you know it, you'll be posting from home again.

Elenka said...

((((((Balisha))))))
I will be very busy tomorrow as it's the first day of school, BUT I will make a point of thinking about you and sending powerful positive vibes your way!
This will soon be over with and you'll be as good as new!!
Glad your husband will be keeping us posted.
Be well, my friend.
E

Judy said...

You will be your fiesty self again before you know it. I am sure your emotions have run the gamut but it won't be long now and you will be able to put this all behind you.
I sent you an e-mail. Love and hugs, Judy

Anne and Leigh said...

Hello Balisha,

My mother (Judy, Living on the other side of the hill), told my sister and I today about what you are going through. Just wanted to drop by and tell you, we will be thinking about you, and you are in our thoughts and prayers.

Anne and Leigh Walkup

Lynn said...

Oh we are so much alike... I am really a control freek, but I wouldn't dare say that outloud... I really try not to be that way so much, but it is hard.
Here is one of my favorite quotes for you today...

Optimism is the foundation of courage.

-Nicholas Murray Butler

So if we are truely alike I know you are a real Optimist!!!

Margie's Musings said...

I will have you in my prayers while you are in surgery. May God bless you and make your body strong.

Wsprsweetly Of Cottages said...

Hi Balisha...
I think as women we have had to be in control. If you are a sissy, then so am I. This is probably the first time for both of us that we are up against something that is out of our control...no I take that back. The first time was with Patrick...and then Frank.

This is all going to be over...by the end of Sept...we will be back to our old selves. ..and all will be well.

Are you able to get out and go for walks? I haven't been able to yet..and I miss that.

Balisha...I wish I could make it all go away for you!!1

nancybond said...

Thinking of Balisha and anxiously waiting for any word of how things went for her yesterday . . .

Balisha said...

You people are so wonderful...thankyou.
Balisha