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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

My Woods

Maybe you won't want to read this. It's going to be a real downer. I just took a walk back to the little woods. In just the short time that I haven't been able to care for it...it is beginning to revert back to how it was when I moved in nine years ago. The grassy weeds are starting to take hold, small saplings have grown up overnight, garlic mustard is back, the border isn't defined, etc. It made me so sad to think of all the work that I put in on that special (to me) spot. I'm sure that the little birds and creatures will just love it now. It is really their home that I have intruded on and made things my way. As I looked at it, with tears in my eyes, I thought that maybe this is the time to just let it go. I really can't take care of it and Joe really doesn't have his heart in it. I have several statues of Saints there and a special trellis. Maybe I can get someone to move the trellis up to the house and just leave the Saints in the woods. I think that I made the decision while I was back there. I have to let it go and just concentrate on the gardens around the perimeter of the house. My bench is back there. I'll just sit there and watch the wildlife enjoy their home just as they like it. I've planted a couple of red bud trees, a Korean spice bush, honeysuckle, lilacs, mock orange, hibiscus, crab apple tree, and several clematis....along with so many perennials, like my giant hostas. It will be interesting to see how these things fare with little to no care. You know, here I am thinking about myself and my loss, when some people have it so bad right now. It seems selfish and silly to me, as I think more about it. After all, I still have some little gardens to tend and maybe with this off my back, I can make things even nicer up at the house.
If you're still here...thanks for reading this today.


Lona said...

I am sure this was a hard decision for you to make. But a person has to do what they can. When it begins to be such a chore it is time to let it go. Enjoy your gardens around the house.

Country Wings in Phoenix said...

Good Morning Sweetie...
A heart felt share this morning. Sometimes we have to search our hearts and find what we really can do in a days time/a weeks time/and a months time. We aren't any of us getting any younger, and it is a lot of work to keep such a big area clipped and taken care of. I know Mother Nature will be happy to take it back and give it to the wildlife for security. You can still watch from afar and you do still have your gardens at the house.

Just keep you a path open to your bench, so you can sit, watch and listen from time to time.

Many hugs and much love, Sherry

Zoey said...

I feel sad with you, Balisha. It must be so hard to let it go back to nature. I think you have a good attitude about it. Nature is now getting it back and you will be able to enjoy the new wildlife in it's natural habitat. There is something to be said for that.

judemiller1 said...

I think it would be nice to just let it go back natural--you will have your bench there and you can go back and enjoy how God brings His wildflowers and grasses back. I know this feels like a loss to you--not being able to garden and work as we once did, is a huge loss. I know, I realized that 3 years ago--it has bothered me ever since, but---what can we do? We have to accept what we can and find joy in what is left. Just like in all things in life.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Balisha, so much of what you post is "me". Created my woods starting 2 1/2 years ago and now I wonder - how long can I tend what has flourished.
Maybe we can encourage one another.

Rose said...

Balisha, I know how sad you must be to let your woods go, but I know that day will come for all of us when we realize we just can't keep up with it all anymore. I think you've made a wise decision to focus on the garden areas around your house and let Mother Nature take over the wooded area. I'm sure the birds and other wildlife will still love it, and hopefully you can sit on your bench and enjoy them.

Margie's Musings said...

I know how it is. It is getting harder for me to find the time to tend my little flowerbeds. Working four days a week really cuts into my gardening time.

But you're right to let it go back to nature unless you could hire someone to help you with it.