I went out this morning, seeing that there were clouds in the sky, hoping that I could get a little cleanup done. My heart wasn't in it though...my heart was in Elgin... with my dear friends. I've written about them before, they were the couple who introduced Joe and I and stood up for us at our wedding. He's been suffering from Parkinson's disease for a long time now. We visited a couple of Sundays ago and he was very bad. Nancy, his wife, has taken care of him for such a long time. Tending to his every need. It's so hard to see this when my life has been so carefree these past few years. I have felt guilty telling my friend the fun things that I do...when she has taken on this task that God gave her. I'm sure she goes through her day remembering her marriage vows..in sickness and in health...I've known them both for most of my life. We were in the same high school. They were school sweethearts...so fun loving and good together.We've raised our kids together. We've always had such fun with them. We've shared laughs and tears. So, today she is having to talk to hospice. They are coming tomorrow to evaluate him. I'm sitting here crying right now...as I write this post. It's so hard to go on with my everyday tasks when someone I love is struggling so. The rain clouds parted long enough for me to cleanup around the mailbox. It started up again just as I finished...so I left the cart and chair there and ran to the house. I check my emails often, in case she's written anything. Joe had written an email to her...he had me read it before sending it...there were tears in his eyes. Oh, Lord...we are both so broken up by this....I can only imagine how their family is feeling. I wish I knew what to do to make it better.
The sky tells my mood today. I decided to give it up and come in to stay. The yard will get done this fall. I have so many sad things on my mind. I need comfort food. Grilled cheese and tomato soup for lunch today. It's something that my Mom always gave me when I was sick or unhappy. Balisha