Coming Back

Coming back. It's been less than a week and here I am again. I've been really trying to pay attention to myself through all of this. I've always been there for my family, husband and others...I feel that I need some taking care of this time. So, saying that...I've tried to stay away from negativity. If a particular person brings me down...I am just ignoring that person. It may seem heartless, but my mind is muddled enough without that behavior. 

The nation's news is so terrible right now...I just turn it off and find something pleasant to do. 

I'm glad that it is cooler...my throw on the couch is comforting to me somehow. 

A hot shower can do wonders. 

We are eating out a little more and I am making comfort food here at home. Nothing spicy ..just comforting.
My day in the garden...planting rose bushes and a lilac... day before yesterday... was great therapy. I think that nature can calm us and bring pleasant thoughts to mind. 

Trying to plan something of a memorial in my garden...so I can think of him when I am doing what makes me happy. 

Cards are coming in....some have made me cry. I think that crying is a good thing. It is a release for me. 

One day I did really deep cleaning. Taking out my frustrations on my house is one way to cope and be satisfied that something good came out of that frustration.

Just sitting on the porch and watching the birds is the best kind of time for me. 

Having a hard time concentrating on reading...so poetry comes to the rescue.
A friend gave me some art projects quite a while ago...I finished them...I can get lost in artwork

My kids and Joe's kids constant phone calls, emails and plans to get together this weekend.. are helping us all.

Online Scrabble game with my daughter and Yahtzee game with youngest son...tells me that life must go on. Tim wouldn't want us grieving too much. 

Going to Mass and Joe telling me that he bought a memorial stone for Tim...for the Grotto...gave me some joy.

Joe encouraging me to go for drives in the evening    have also helped.

Filling the freezer with muffins and bar cookies is a plan for today. Muffins are comforting too. 

and then....rereading all of the comments left here for the past many days has helped me so much. 

I can't thank you enough...

Balisha