Not Feeling Up to Par

Sitting here in the afternoon and not feeling up to par.....I thought about when I was younger and had children to care for. I got used to taking care of them even though I didn't feel good. Moms do that...we all have that ability to let ourselves go and trudge on... even if we are sick. Sometimes we all would be sick and that was the worst. My kids were always good sleepers and when they were ill....they would sleep a lot. Well, those days are gone. They are all grown and on their own....one has kids of his own and has been dealing with this... like I did.I don't know when things changed, but I find now that I can't do what I did in the past. I have a hard time keeping up things around the house, when I'm not feeling good. We are just two and Joe is so tolerant about meals and the house and he does pitch in and do a lot of the work...but I feel guilty that I can't do it all. I guess those old feelings about being a Mom are still with me.
I have been not feeling well for about a month. It started with the cold that Joe had, but mine lingered on and on it seems.It turned out to be the flu that everyone has had around here.  Yesterday, I was at the doctor's. I had the appointment for quite some time...He's very young and not very easy to talk to. He talks with a medical vocabulary and not down at his patients level. That's my only criticism of him. So, here I am, coughing to beat the band and talking to him telling him about how I feel. He's looking at his computer and I'm wondering if he's going to turn around and talk to me. I should have been more patient, because he was just getting the information down correctly, because he did turn around and talked face to face.He determined that I have bronchitis  and  I was sent home with a couple of prescriptions.One for this cough and another for arthritis. I really don't like to take medicine...especially new medications. Now, with the computer...we can all be amateur doctors. We can look up information on what we think our condition is and also check out the medications that are prescribed for us. I think it was better before computers when we would bring a medication home and just go to the sink and take it. I'm afraid to take the one medication now, because of things I read on the computer. It's the same with commercials for medicines on TV. With all the side affects that they list...who would want to take them? I suppose they have to list them all. I guess that I'm going to have to call the doctor and tell him about my apprehension. It doesn't help being married to a retired RN he either knows or has medical books to look things up.He's always learning and was a very good nurse.He drives me crazy while watching medical shows on TV....he talks and says what's wrong before they tell us on TV.Sometimes it's like a game with us...both of us trying to tell the disease and treatment before the other.
Well, this got long and I didn't mean to bore you all....it's just on my mind and that's what I write about here....things that are running around my brain. I'll continue to take the medicine and hopefully that will be the thing I need.The best medicine, I think,  is when you get an email from a fellow blogger telling you to feel better and have a peaceful sleep at night. I so appreciate anyone who takes the time to comment a get well wish or sends an email. Just wanted you to know :)
Balisha