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Saturday, August 17, 2013

Tim's Birthday Would Have Been Today

Today would be my son Tim's 56th birthday. Sadly he passed away three months ago. I wrote this poem when he was hospitalized in hopes that he would recover. That was not to be. We lost Tim and lost a big part of our family. We are all doing all right...we think about him everyday and know that things will get better as time goes on.This birthday is the first hurdle we have come to...then the holidays.We all handle death in our own way.My way is made easier because of my strong faith that Tim is safe in Jesus's arms.

Morning Memories by Balisha

I woke up early morning...all in my comfy bed..
Memories were drifting through my drowsy head.
A little bundle all in blue was in my arms so sweet..
A baby boy to care for and love beyond belief.
He was so small with eyes of blue...just perfect I would say..
We took him home and cared for him..he soon began to play.
The years went by so fast indeed... it was time for school to start..
Kindergarten came so fast....I knew that he'd be smart. 
He cried when left....it broke my heart to leave him there that day..
The teacher said, "He'll be alright once he begins to play."
The years were filled with creatures...snakes, lizards and a rat..
We had so many pets those days.. a dog and then a cat..
It was time for graduation and then the Air Force took our boy..
I wished that he could stay at home...he was my pride and joy.
Children grow in many ways and they start to grow away..
It's what they are supposed to do...a Mom just has no say.
So, years went by, so fast it seems... a job and marriage too..
We get together on holidays... and birthdays... quite a few,
I lie in bed this morning and think about the past..
He's sick right now....I'm hoping that he will heal  fast.
So Jesus if you're listening...I have a small request...
I'm handing you my bundle... I know that you know best.
How to make him  healthy..we all could use some rest.
We need him in our family...he's always been such fun..
This battle that he's fighting is one that will be won.
So, in my bed I'm thinking.. of memories of the past...
The future looks much brighter... and Tim will  be well at last.


Barbara said...

Your poem very heart wrenching. Sending prayers your way. Remember your heartbreak at the time. Such a consolation to know that he is in the arms of Jesus and completely healed but still the pain at your loss. Blessings.

Judy said...

Pat said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers today my dear Balisha. I can not imagine losing a child.

Brenda Kula said...

My age. Oh, I'm so very, very sorry for your unimaginable loss.

Barbee' said...

I think it is the worst thing that could happen to a parent. B., I think of you and him almost every day.

Poppy said...

Dear Balisha,

A lovely tribute to your son, Tim. I am so very sorry for your unimaginable loss. My prayers are with you today.


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Debra at HOMESPUN: http://www.thehomespun.com said...

Oh Balisha..no words...just my heart

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Balisha, remembering you in my prayers at this very moment.

acorn hollow said...

such a heart felt poem thinking of you in this hard time.

Balisha said...

Thankyou all so much for your loving comments.It really helps to know that others are thinking and praying for us.We went to Mass last night and I lit a candle for him...and prayed that God would take care of him.Things are getting easier and we are all doing fine...
Hugs Balisha

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear, dear Balisha ~ Your post really touched my heart. My husband and I also hoped & prayed that he'd be healed, and he is, but not the way we had hoped. God took him home, as he took your dear Tim home too. They are healed, made perfectly whole and one day we will see them again.

Love, hugs and prayers for you this day ~ FlowerLady

Margie's Musings said...

I have you in my thoughts today, Balisha.

Cape Cod Kitty said...

That is such a wonderful tribute/prayer, Balisha. Your faith is so strong and I know you are right about Tim being in a place of safety and peace.

Nantucket Daffodil said...

Oh Balisha, how touching. How heartbreaking to lose a child. You certainly keep his memory alive with your tributes to him. What a loving mother!

Jan said...

I'm sorry. I'm also 56. So sad to lose a child. Hugs to you in your loss. Jan